It is impossible for someone to 'make you mad.
' No matter how much you would like to convince yourself otherwise, the truth remains; no one can 'make you mad.
' You are already angry before any type of confrontation or explosion takes place.
You can only be bothered on the outside by life's lesson you have not adapted within.
In other words, whatever reactive negative emotional display you show another is not because of him/her but for the recognition of your desire to transmute a repressed issue on the inside of you.
It has nothing whatsoever to do with the other person.
Nothing! As long as you refuse to see the opportunity of the light of truth being offered, {through various emotional outbursts} you will continue to be blind which causes you to fall in the ditch.
Nothing occurs on the outside that you have dealt with and finished within yourself.
Sometimes, we cling to matters that have long since released us, but we refuse to move on.
No problems exist on the outside.
None.
If you are yelling, sulking, gossiping, accusing, blaming others, regarding issues that you inadvertently have assumed belong to them, you are the one who is mistaken.
No one has wronged, cheated, abused, abandoned, neglected, lied to, or betrayed you in any manner.
These are mere appearances that are false and misleading.
It would be easy to assign blame onto another without realizing the real culprit lies within.
How long will you accuse, whine and pine over some trivial matter which needs be put away forever? Get a life.
You are not that special nor do you want to be! Stop reliving old imagined injuries that do nothing but support and feed a premeditated superfluous personality.
The life you are living makes you nauseas.
You are bored to tears with people 'kissing your butt'; that's the real problem to be dealt with.
You don't want a 'yes' man, you desire a genuine sparring partner.
One who will not take personally truths you long to voice.
You are looking for authenticity and not finding it.
So, out of monotony you tumble down into the depths of despair once again by creating phony drama.
You are much too frightened to step out on your own recognizance in a totally new direction for fear of being discarded or disbanded or disowned for your acting out of familiar character.
In other words, IF you really were true to yourself, you would be able to act ruthlessly authentic without fear of recourse, remorse or resentment.
The fact is: YOU are the genuineness you are looking for but you want someone else to show it to you first before you will step out.
That's the real reason you're mad.
You want someone to be REAL for you.
THAT is the only matter consuming you at this time.
You are a passionate sexual sensual artistic soul who longs for vital interaction and direct connection.
You desire to be set on fire! {To unleash your innate fire of enthusiasm} You will have to come to terms with this one unresolved inner issue that continually shows up.
Take this little test.
The next time you are drawn into a verbal confrontation which you erroneously believe will 'make or has made you mad', look directly into the eyes of the person addressing you, facing you, calling your attention to show up for your truth! Those eyes are yours!!! What is it you are not saying? Don't react by slipping into the hypnotized zombied set of mechanical actions repeating the same old words in the same old manner; say the opposite, do the opposite.
Laugh.
Embrace.
Show affection.
Act silly not serious.
Shock yourself! Realize you must work these things out within yourself.
You can not possibly find what you are looking for by blaming the other for what you are not willing to see in yourself.
Art is demanding you to EXIST.
Stop with your obnoxious foolishness which comes across as phoniness.
You don't care! You really don't.
Stop wasting so much time, effort and energy in projects that don't interest you in the least.
Follow your true established passion.
Either get sexy or get sickly.
No other choice.
Either get over it or get old holding on to it! Work it out through sexual activity.
Artistic expression is based upon sexual energy expressed.
It is sacred in nature, composition and execution! That's it in a nut shell.
No where else will you find resolution.
You will continue to have verbal emotional explosions.
They are necessary to the process of your own Divine Artistic Unfoldment.
But, when the confrontations accusations, and nit picking dissentions, arise, at least be aware of yourself and conscious participation when they occur.
Don't go unconscious! If you follow these esoteric instructions, you will see the self-indulged arguments become fewer and farther between.
They will continue only as long as is necessary for you to recognize the issues that still lay dormant within you needing to be exploded on the outside.
Once these sexually frustrating matters are resolved, you will have no more need to waste energy, time and effort in these needless disturbing battles.
You will channel the sacred sexual energy into fulfilling passionate artistic avenues of pleasure.
In order to be more receptive and clear enough to receive reverent instruction from within, you must take care of your earth body.
Through proper exercise, quality nourishment in food and a sensual colorful environment (more light, more movement) you will begin to heal.
With the necessary ingredients in place, unity occurs.
Harmonious relationships arise naturally when these three diamonds are in order in your life.
With committed focus, you can arrive at that sphere where the things on the outside of you will no longer bother you in the least.
You will cease being plagued by the incessant need to be right, smart, funny or informed.
It will be impossible for you to be embarrassed.
And, never again will the words:"He/She makes me so mad" have the same significance as they have had up until this point.
"...
You shall know the truth and the truth will set you free.
" {paraphrased}