Little Tommy was looking at his mother for approval which lately hadn't been coming very often. She was not mean enough to slap him when he displeased her, but she was mean enough to call him names. His mother seemed to have a switch inside of her that at the top was the words €sweet€ and at the bottom of the switch was marked €mean€.
His mother was always sweet and super mother when she knew that other people were watching them. She seemed to have the time to praise him whenever he did something she approval of and she seemed to have the time to explain why she was upset with him when he did something he knew was wrong. In this instance, she would have cupcakes that she would tell him that she had baked for him with love. Little Tommy loved the times that the switch was up and that his mother was sweet to him. He got hugs and kisses from this special lady that he called €mother€.
Then, the switch would somehow slide downward, and his mother would change from sweet to mean. When, he would do something that would please her, she would give him a brief smile and go on with whatever she had been doing before hand. In these moments, he loved his mother because she was easy to get along with and he loved to see his mother smile at him. He knew he was safe when she was smiling, but he also knew the other mother was not far from being exposed.
The other mother was a meanie and bully that Little Tommy had to see come out of his mother. At first, the other mother would only come out when she was stressed from being a single parent and not having help from anyone in her family. They live alone, and she was always dreaming about the days before Tommy was born when she could do whatever she wanted. She could go to concerts, bars, or any type of party that she wanted to. That is how Little Tommy came into existence.
She met the man that would become Little Tommy's dad and they were drunk after one special party at a friend's house. One thing leads to another, and they ended up in bed together. About three months later, she knew she was pregnant after going to the doctor and she was excited to tell Little Tommy's dad. When, she told him the news, he asked her when she was going to get an abortion. She slapped him as the tears ran and she walked away from that man she started to hate as he was laughing his head off.
One day, she was more stressed than usual and she started to yell at him that he was the reason she couldn't enjoy her life anymore. Tears came to his soft brow eyes, and he looked at the monster that he had thought was his mother. She continues to yell at him, and this time, she didn't care who heard her. The last straw came when she slapped him across the face and she yelled to get away from her.
In a whispered voice that only Little Tommy could muster, he stood in front of his mother and said €I thought you loved me.€ He watched as his mother crumpled in front of him into a ball and started to cry. For the next ten minutes, all she did was cry and Little Tommy thought she has to be running out of water to make tears pretty soon. She sat up and said €I love you very, very, very, much and I have been acting like a spoiled monster to you. Will you please forgive me?€ She opened her arms, and Little Tommy ran into them.
The twosome sat there rocking back and forth while they hugged the other person. They sat that way for the next two hours as they told each other how much they love each other and how they were going to change.
Little Tommy mother whispered to him €Promise me, you will never change since you are perfect the way you are. I am the monster and I am the one that needs the help. I am going to change since I want to prove to you, how much I love you and need you in my life.€
To this day, after much therapy for both of them to get pass the rough beginning, the mother is showing Little Tommy how much he is loved.