Before I became a mother [http://talesofayearningmother.blogspot.com//], I was daughter - a vibrant young girl full of dreams, hope and faith. I was always the loved and favored member of the family.

It was high school. I was a teen-ager, fuelled by passion and rebellion to do things on my own and my way. Why couldn't they just let me be me?! I always find my parents especially my mother intruder of own life. They kept from enjoying things my friends were enjoying then - dances, alchol, smoking, boyfriends...etc. Why? In my mind, at the age of 14 I was thinking I knew what I wanted and what would make me happy!!!

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But then because deep in my heart, more than the "teeny" stuff, I wanted to make a change - for my parents and for myself. It was ironic that my humble beginnings taught me to dream and aim high so I took prioritities.

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Big time decision. For me it was one of the biggest decisions of my entire existence. For me to be able to college, I had to move out from my parents roof and went to my cousin. I was hired as a househelp and a tutor to my nephews.

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There's no turning back.I had to make or break. It was no joke living with people not as compassionate, caring and loving as your parents. They wont be there 24/7 when you're sick. Every small or big triumphs lacked one inch of happiness. However grave the obtstackles were, I finished my degree. For some it might not be a big deal. Not for me. Because by achieving so, I made two beautiful people very proud and happy.

That's what being a parent
is. Like a programmed traffic light. They know when to stop us so we will not get hurt emotionally and physically.They know how to prepare us to which path we're going to take. To ensure that in all battles of life we would be able to win it.Or if we fail, we would know how to stand on our feet. And they know when to let us go. To be ourselves and be the best that we can be.Not because of selfishness but because of pure parental love.

And now I am a mother of three boys, not only I want to be programmed traffic light. I also want to be the sunshine, the moon and the stars, and everything that I can be so that if I have to let them go and when they are on in their own, they will not stumble or if they do, they will be the bravest to stand and move on.